This year.. what should i say..
Warning: This is going to be long, very long post and with the given font size, it will be torturous for anyone to read. haha! take care!
It's a challenging year, i won't use the word 'tough'. It is a lot facing the reality. Of course, it's not that i have been escaping from reality, but it's just that this year is exposed to more things then the previous years.
There are a couple of changes about things around like, school, friends, environment, home and as well as myself. Had to adjust and adapt to these changes. I shall share some here.
For school, I don't mind getting in to jc. It started rather well with a goal in mind, mixing with people, doing homework. But unknowingly, gradually i seemed to have loosen my grip on these. Unsure of the reasons maybe because there were issues happening simultaneously. Quite bothered by some issues, some adding oil into the fire, thus affected in other areas. One of the areas is friendship. Due to these tacky issues, i did not put as much effort in friendship compared to the previous year. In fact, the effort put in was very little. But despite of this, i am very grateful that i have this friend, Jiajia, thanks for being with me through this year in school, encouraging me, lending a hand, though i didnt tell you much because i don't want to trouble you. Sorry for not being in the same school anymore. However, no worries yah? We can always meet often! (:
Another area is studies, one thing that is very bad about myself is that i can be quite easily influenced. Plus with my no-self-disciplined mode and jc is somewhere that we constantly need to be self-disciplined to study. By the time i really started studying, it's kind of too late to catch up with everything. Although it may sounds strange, but somehow enjoyed studying, enjoyed the things that i have learnt.
My biggest regret is that i'm unable to stay focus to my goal in jc and slipped away, thus causing the befall. Well, now, the only thing i can is to prevent this from repeating and move on and improve.
Another weakness about me is that, at times i can be very reliant on people. That is really really bad, when you rely too much on someone and thought he/she would understand more than the rest, but in end, it is just not the case. This would affect even more.
When wanted to share something, but find out that he/she has drifted too far out to be reached. It worsen.
Friend... This word can be so huge holds great significance, yet it can be belittled. The actions and thoughts of others cannot be controlled/determined by us, just be sure of what you want and do what you think is right and treat them with the utmost sincere. Though i am not very close to my classmates this year, i am very glad that i have met them all. Thanks peeps! Hope all of you is well and all the best for your future endeavors! No matter how far they seems to be, i hope that they will be happy with whatever they are doing.
By right with all the trainings during PE in school, should even fitter then previous year. Yup, indeed fitter but fallen ill more times. Perhaps due to more that physical fitness? i guess so.
This year has make me realise alot of things. No matter what harsh the situations might be, you, yourself must be able to rely on yourself and overcome them. As you grow older, the courage and will become more and more important. The courage to embark on the journey where you do not know the outcome. The will to strive through and overcome the obstacles. And of course, alot of others too. I shant type all here. Or else it would be too lengthy.
2008 is like a learning year for me. It might seem and it is a failure to me, but clearly not a waste. Must GAMBATTE!!! Need to make a 2009 be a better and more fulfilling year. MUST! So much more to learn and improve!
I think i shall not have new year resolutions. haha! it seems useless to me though it should be advisable. If have, i think i need to feature it on a large banner and hang in my room! haha
PS: This proberly the longest post that i have posted.
Thanks to those who have help in some way another! A little thought means alot!
In the process of finding myself back...
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