school starts

Post promos!
hmm......... was looking forward to it, because it will be the time that i will make up what i have lost. But it seems too late. Just when you are so eager, so full of hope and willing to put in the effort then it came crashing down the motivation, optimism and hope. The whole self turning from eager, to disappointed, to puzzled, sianed and eventually heck care. Seriously i hope such way of attitude would not appear on me towards these people. But it is not something that can be pinpointed and there are no definite rightsand wrong about it.

Is it because they are valued so much that they affect other areas of life in though they are not involved, like example, work performances for working people?
Looking back,
some attitude have changed, precious time had lost consciously and subconsciously affect by it. Attitude changed refers to that, in the past i would always go to school, and even looking forward to going to school. However, this year i had thoughts of skipping school. Some other things also happened where it would better to have more support but.. nvm. Starting really bothers alot, till i cant even concentrate in class, sometimes being all gloomy that is not the usual me.
Now it doesnt affect as much as it suppose to so, i guess because getting used to it, getting numb by it. Sometimes i think there no humanity in it, but that's not a very right word to use to describe too. Some people might just say, just heck care about it. I would have heck cared if their nature is hopeless, but this case, it isnt.

aiya, now just see how, 走一步，算一步。
hmm... maybe shall let nature takes it cause? I suppose so.

oh my..... sounded so unpleasing to the earsthat it spoils the reputation of the original singer and the song.
tsk, i'm seeing a running blind mice.

well, that's all.