Whats wrong with me?!

-6 dec-

Argh! oh my oh my! Today like so damn buay song.... Keep criticising people.... MY tone in msn is quite harsh... sarcastic.... Somemore got flu... damn irritating....

Play maple... keep walking around killing the same thing, trying to level up... Normally friends play together with u will be better, but i'm opposite. haha! My level so damn low.. then i'mlike dragging them down... lagging behind. Then when we had party, I always get killed easily compared to my friends. I needa rest in order to regain my HP then one of them said ,'why u always rest then nv fight'. i was thinking .... 'HELLO! DO U THINK I WANT IT THIS WAY? I ALSO HOPE I CAN FIGHT TOGETHER WITH U ALL, BUT MY LEVEL IS TOO LOW' Haiz...forget it, i slowly train myself. prehaps that will better for me and for them. haha, prehaps i expect too much from them? haha... These few days i kept playig maple even though i have no interest in it. strange huh? i think partly also... i cant really chat with people much ... and i wanna train myself in maple. lame reason huh?

Few days ago, my personal message was some jumbled up alphabets. A fren was the first person who asked me about it. I was quite lightened up when someone actually noticed it and bothers to ask. He solved the second one while i was playing maple. When i came back into the conversation he already went offline, then his comment for me was 'thats crap'. Well well well....i didnt expect him to say that. Level of impression from me to him actually went down quite alot. disappointed ... Nvm, i will filter those negative comments that is useless to me.

haiz..... sometimes gets a bit depress i dun really know the cause because little disappointment and troubles from people around me slowly accumulate. Sometimes it is really hard to stay positive all time......